Lorence Bernadete Ilao
Hi there, before I start with this blog, I will just make an introduction so you would know me and some things about me. I’m just a simple person who has a weird personality. Honestly, I don’t really know why I had this kind of personality. However, I can’t do anything with it but to accept and be who I really am. Thankfully, I’m getting used to it already. I just think that I should learn how to accept my own personality and get used to it so I would know the real me, my real personality; how to handle it as well.
I was a fourteen year old girl turning fifteen when I started blogging on a different site, since I’m still new with it and then, I had my first blog entry last September 5, 2017 at 4:30 pm entitled “An Introduction”. I decided to have my very first blog about myself so that people, who’ll be reading my blog entries, have an idea on how I was like and what kind of person I am. I was still a grade nine student by that time and was studying at Buhaynasapa National High School (BNHS) before. I studied there from grade seven until grade nine first grading and then, I continued studying at Joseph Marello Institute (JMI) from the start of second grading until that school year; until I finished my grade nine year. I decided to go back to BNHS when I was in grade ten, my last year in junior high school (jhs) and completed my jhs there too. Also, I was awarded as one of the students with honors at the end of the school year.
I’m actually not that smart but I’m in the first section, ever since when I started studying. Hence, I know in myself that I only study when I feel/like to do it. Luckily, when I was in grade eight I was one of the with honors students and since then, I strive harder to retain it. I’m an introvert person but not as that much. I still socialize with others but only in a few, those whom I’m already comfortable with. Hopefully, someday I will be able to socialize with other people very well, not only in few or some but to all of those, who I encountered in my life.
Going back to my life before. I honestly tend to get bored whenever I’m reading especially, when it is long and doesn’t have a picture. Gladly, that habit of mine changed when I was in grade four. At present, I love reading books, stories on Wattpad and etc., regardless of its length and even if it doesn’t have pictures. I just learned how to imagine what I’ve been reading, as if it’s a real one. I also love listening to music too. In fact, whenever I’m sad, I’ll love to listen to sad songs especially, on those songs that I can rely on. I even read sad stories whenever I feel like that. I want to cry but there’s no tears falling from my eyes. So weird right? Hahahaha! Lol! 😂
I’m not good at anything nor have any talent. However, I’m trying out new things recently and have even done such things that I never did in my whole life or if I ever did, it was only a few times. I’m actually doing it for me to figure out the things that I can do well or the things that I’m good at, as well as those that I’m capable of . The same thing that I’ve been doing for almost two years now. I’ve been trying to write stories and poems either in English or Filipino, depending on where I could work on it very well. Also, I tried to make a blog which I really want to, ever since when I was younger.
Furthermore, I want to learn how to play musical instruments especially, acoustic guitar and keyboards, those were actually some of my dreams; since when I was eight. I honestly didn’t tell anything about it to anyone not until when I was in grade eight. I remember by that time, my mother asked me what thing I would like to have and there, I told her that I want to learn how to play an acoustic guitar. I already have so many regrets in life, and have lost so many opportunities due to my shyness and self-doubts so I want to try things out, as long as I can to prevent having more.
Moving on, I have had so many dreams ever since childhood, some are seemingly impossible, it’s actually only me and God knows all of it, but I could share some of them now. Someday, I want to travel to the places that I have liked since childhood. I want to be a chef too. I want to help others who are needed and make people happy. I also want to be successful in life and find the reason why I am here on earth. Also, I want to be what I want ever since childhood days, if I would be given a chance and with help of God of course. Well, that’s something I can’t share for now since I’m not yet ready but if it’s gonna happen, I will tell it to people with pure honesty.
Unlike with the other girls, I can go anywhere without make-ups or even put powder on my face especially, whenever I have colds as it could just make it worse. I even don’t like too strong scents, as it could make me have colds and even headaches. I just simply preferred using certain body spray most of the time, as it was endorsed (not sure if I used the right term/word) by my idol Maine Mendoza, (Oh, Hello to all ADN out there!) and it’s either one of those body sprays that she’s endorsing (again, I’m not sure if I used the right term/word) that I’m currently using.
If you happen to know me personally, I easily get annoyed whenever my feet are being stepped on and when my stuff is being touched or arranged by anyone, except me. However, there were instances that I allowed or gave permission to other people to touch my stuff. Don’t get me wrong but in several things I’m much oc although, there were times that my belongings needed to be cleaned by someone else and honestly, I can’t do anything with it but to let her.
Those were actually just some of the things about me. Anyway, you will know me better as I express myself more through writing and posting it here with my next blog entries. Feel free to visit my blog often. That’s all for now and I don’t think I can add something more to this. Thank you and God Bless!
much love,
ilayxzegurl ♡
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