I have been on and off when it comes to writing. In fact, I rarely open my blog and also, my Wattpad account for the past few months. Aside from being busy with academic related tasks, I also didn’t feel like writing during those times either. I mainly choose to chill and rest, whenever I have free time. It was something I could do for myself, after being stressed about so many things. Anyway, I’m not really sure how this entry would go, I’ll just write whatever I feel and think of right now.
I’m supposed to post an edited chapter of one of my stories, which I have been working on for years already. However, I was having problems accessing my Wattpad account on my laptop, as I was ranting on in my tweet above. I guess I will continue to write more about my rants in this entry. I somehow feel bad for it, since I rarely experience the feeling of being inspired to write something like that. Then, I wouldn’t be able to post anything and also, I’m afraid I might lose interest again soon. I have actually been thinking that I’m turning into a frustrated aspiring writer, who isn’t able to make any progress at all.
On the other hand, I was really hoping that I would not give up on writing for good, since it’s one of reasons why I was able to keep on going all these years. Obviously, through the means of writing, I could be able to express many things and even, including my rants. In this way, I could somehow feel better and also, ease out the negativity I have with me. Writing also serves as another way of coping up within, and I don’t know what would happen if I totally gave up on it. To be honest, thinking about such things makes me already feel so emotional. *Heavy sighs. *
I was really trying my best to also fight over my aspirations in writing. Unfortunately, the timing of feeling motivated to write; doesn’t sync well with the other things I’m trying to work on. Of course, my studies would be my main priority among all of those. Despite the fact of being on a path, which I don’t really like the most, it doesn’t necessarily mean that I wouldn’t do my best within the stability I have, as to move forward. I know, it’s still going to be a long way ahead and yet, I just hope that I will still choose to keep on going no matter what.
I still need to study for the law on obligations and contract, and introduction to law tonight. I also have other three subjects along with these two, which are on Tuesdays and Thursdays in our schedule for this semester. I had lesser issues regarding my current schedule, compared to my previous schedules when I was still in first year. The current schedule I have right now for subjects doesn’t really start early most of the time, which is good for me. I’m still somehow hating waking up early in the morning even until now. However, the minimal issue I have right now, was having more subjects on T-Th, which usually makes me feel tired even before halfway of the week.
Moving on, I have to cut off my entry here. I really have to study for oblicon and intro to law tonight. I already had a brief studying of the other subjects earlier and so, for the rest of the night would be intended for law related subjects. I might also do a re-reading tomorrow before our class starts tomorrow. Hopefully, things would turn out into something good, though the possibility of negative outcomes still remains on the side. Thank you so much for spending your time reading my entry!
ilay 