I’m not really sure if I really don’t have much to do tonight, or I just rather choose not to do so. It’s indeed not a good start for the entry, but yeah, it’s more realistic though. I guess, I would rather have it as raw as possible, as to make it close the reality. It’s almost three weeks already since I last posted an entry if I’m not mistaken. Is it me or, it’s just that time really changes so fast, Hence, weekends no longer feel the same, as it used to be. In fact, it somehow drained as well. Perhaps, it’s because I have a class scheduled on Saturday and so, I felt like I was about to start resting today.
*Heavy sighs* It will be Monday already tomorrow. I felt like I wasn’t able to rest either. I know that some people were into something more than I did, but it doesn’t mean that I could invalidate my own feelings for such too. My life lately has been much more than what I think I could take. It was quite draining for me as well to be honest. I guess, it wasn’t solely because of college life happenings, but rather more the shift on adulting.
Back then, I used to think that I was somehow matured already for my age. Unknowingly, there’s more to come after all that I had been through. It seems like it was just a warm-up or at least what actually prepared me for what I’m currently experiencing. I feel like crying if I was still my old self, for I was indeed a sensitive person ever since. However, I unconsciously no longer feel like doing that much and instead, I ended up being more understanding in the situations.
Before I end this entry, I would like to share about what somehow lifts up my not so good mood. I know it’s not supposed to be a big deal. However, I just feel good that people choose to spend their time on reading what I have written. It’s something that I couldn’t vividly explain, but I’m only sure it’s more of a positive feeling. I guess I have to end the entry here. By the way, thank you so much for spending your time reading my entry!
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