I just had eaten a baked goodies that my brother had ordered, since I felt hungry and also, somehow started to feel better. It’s now 10:44 pm here and I actually had fallen asleep earlier, as I was that sick. I really had to wear a jacket and even, double my clothes since I’m having chills few hours ago. Upon having dinner, I had taken meds and then, tried to rest once again. Anyway, it’s just good that I’m already starting to feel better now and so, I had suddenly decided to write an entry.
Upon looking at the prompts available, I found it timely to write this one. It was due to the fact; I usually tend to put off writing and other hobbies I used to be passionate about. From unintentionally to intentionally putting off doing such things, it was not that easy to admit such transition. Nevertheless, as harsh as it seems to be, it’s the reality that I have accept. I’m losing the passion I used to have in those hobbies I had, and I’m acquitted as guilty for such.
Back then, I really had to set aside doing those things I used to love, since I have to prioritize other things. These includes my academics, as there’s so much that I have to study for almost every class/meeting in law subjects. Another reason was that I have to lessen up the tasks I’m doing, as due to health-related concerns. Accordingly, it also due to the fact, that I’m not getting that creativity vibe since I have to admit, I’m having existential crisis. I supposed, those previously mentioned somehow justifies why I end up putting off doing writing and other hobbies I used to be passionate about.
On the contrary, if I’m not mistaken. I had already mentioned that I’m now on my 4th-senior year in BS Legal Management which serves as my pre-law, that my schedule at this 1st-present semester seemed to be lighter in compared to what I previously had. I’m grateful that I’m finally done with the Monday to Saturday classes/meetings schedule, as I now mostly had my classes/meetings on Fridays and Saturdays. Also, there were times that it was even conducted via online mode, which is in favor for most of us in class. Likewise, there were also minimal times that I have to go to the university and attend online meetings for org-related, as I was appointed as our class’s director; the said position doesn’t have that many tasks anyway.
Right, I supposed I seemed to overshare something up there, but I’m not removing it. Nevertheless, what I was really trying to say was that I seemed to have more time to do those things, I seemed to put off doing intentionally now. As I have mentioned earlier, I’m acquitted as guilty from being unintentionally to intentionally putting off doing things, such as writing and other hobbies, I used to be passionate about. Despite the attempt of justifying such through the previously stated reasons, I’m still more likely to uphold being guilty of putting off doing such things intentionally. Thus, I even seemed to really start losing it now due to the fact, I’m having that pessimistic mindset of I could do it some other time. Moreover, although I was somehow trying to work on it again at times, I usually tend to prioritize resting and doing whatever I feel like, as I thought just enjoying that less strict schedule I have longed for several semesters.
Setting aside doing things may vary from one person to another, the same thing goes as for the reasons behind it. In my case, it’s writing and other hobbies I used to be passionate about. Starting from being unintentional to intentional practice, as I usually tend to just do things on whatever I feel like thinking, that I had longed enough to have this less strict schedule for several semester. Furthermore, if ever I will be really starting my law school journey by next school year, I’m not really sure of when will I be able to once again have this kind of less strict schedule. As I was informed, law school is so much different kind of life, in compared to what I’m having in undergrad—and even if, I have taken up BS Legal Management as for my pre-law.
It’s now 11:28 pm here, and I’m starting to feel sleepy once again. Nonetheless, I supposed that I already had written what I intended to write within this entry. At this point, I suddenly remembered that I still have pending entries which were supposed for BSLM entries, and those had been stuck in drafts for a while now. Hopefully, I still could be able to post those entries, also that things would get better, and soon I’ll be finally alright. Thank you for spending your time reading my entry, and God Bless!
ilay 